Monday, January 26, 2015

Comparison is the thief of joy {part one}

You have heard that before right? Well it really is one of the most true things I have heard to date. Everyday I find myself comparing how I am as a wife, a mother, a friend, and just a woman in general. I'm constantly wishing that I could be different or look different or DO something different. Even though I am clearly still a work in progress I do feel as if I have semi-mastered at least one area, within my means.
I have never been good with money, I mean NEVER. I grew up spoiled, and entitled and whether my mom wants to admit it or not, I got pretty much everything I asked for. Sure that made me happy for a moment, but then I needed more. Shopping was much more than a hobby, to me it was therapy. Long story short, I grew into adulthood thinking money would come easy and I would always be able to afford anything I wanted. I actually rode mommy's coat tails and leaned on her until the day I got married. I still remember asking for monetary help only months into my new marriage and my moms response (for what seemed like the first time ever) was "no." "You're married now, ask your husband." The problem was, my husband is great with money and I knew he wouldn't choose shopping over bills like I would. I sunk into a sad state of cold realization... I could NOT in fact have anything I wanted anymore.
Before I go on, I feel the need to admit that while at the time I thought I was being slapped in the face with reality I was still far from it. You see, my loving husband paid all the bills and the only things that I was responsible for were my car payment (from an expensive vehicle I was upside down in) and gas. I worked full time and made decent money for someone who only pays a couple bills. In other words, I could still shop.
Then we got pregnant.
I always knew that when I had another baby (because I already had my son prior to meeting and marrying my husband) that I would be a stay at home mom. This was non-negotiable for me. I knew this would be my last and I wanted to savor the time with my kids. Oh, and by "savor the time" I meant no alarm clock..... play dates all the with my girlfriends....I could not give birth fast enough. Finally after those long nine months of working I put in my notice, and my daughter was born.
And THIS is when it happened friends.... I finally got slapped into reality.
**sorry to end there but stay tuned for part two coming soon**

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Weigh in Wednesday #1 {2015}


That is generally how I feel about the "Weigh in Wednesday" concept. I don't know if it is the fact that I don't like being held accountable, or the fact that I just don't want to admit I am still struggling with my weight, or something else completely, but here I am, once again blogging about it. I really, REALLY, want to be a success story! Of course I would love to go from lumpy, stretch mark covered mama, to hard body hottie but more than anything I just want to be comfortable in my skin! Hopefully, tight, fit skin haha.

I have been working out and drinking water and tracking my food since the beginning of last week 
( Yes, NOT the reason for that besides procrastination) 
and I have found that I really don't have a huge problem with eating clean, since we already eat pretty healthy around here, but I am really not great about the planning my meals out part. I need to portion out my {healthy} food and have it ready to grab in a pinch or those Cheeto puffs that my husband keeps  around will be all to easy to fall back on. 

Honestly, I don't want to be a bandwagon fit fan.... I didn't plan on even shouting this out on the blog but I need a change. I need somewhere to go and tell anyone willing to listen that I have succeeded or failed in my journey. I need somewhere to vent when Aunt Flo is on her wretched way and I am struggling to say no to chocolate. Or ALL.THE CARBS. I won't be sharing a before weight or picture because I don't want this to be a before and after until I finally reach my goals. I don't want to compete with anyone but myself and I don't want to HATE food because it is hard on my body and is all I think about everyday. I want to be healthy. I want food to fill me and nourish me, I want food to stop being my out when I have a bad day, or am sitting on the couch watching reality TV. I want to FINALLY have a good relationship with the only thing that has been both my best friend and enemy all in the same day.

So that's it.... I am "weighing in" weekly again and sharing with you all in complete honest fashion.
Wish me luck.....and if you want to, tag along with these ladies and link up like I am!

Weigh In Wednesday


Monday, January 12, 2015

Queen of Promises?

Just me again lovelies :)

I really just wanted to come here to vent...because ummmm, I just plain don't do that often enough. **cough cough** why have a blog if you aren't going to use it right? Of course right! I have nothing specific to talk about. No advice to give, and no sweet giveaways to share with you today BUT I do have myself. I alos have a few cute pictures I will share with y'all so you know I'm not just sitting around here doing nuthin. Even if I am.  hehe. 

I need some ideas as far as a blog schedule goes. Obviously this isn't my day job and is clearly just a hobby at this point, but being the queen of planning that I am , this blog is clearly failing. Does anyone else struggle under pressure? I know you do so don't lie now! Seriously, if I have a deadline my mind blanks on ideas and fills with air or something. All of a sudden im all "duuuuuuh" staring and the TV and junk. Help me. What do you do to keep yourself in check?! I have a bajillion things I want to share but sitting down to do it is rough.


welp, vent over.... nothing new learned and nothing exciting shared, Sorry bout that. Let's meet here again soon and actually DO something next time. cool? 

Oh, I know, I know...anyone else trying to take a picture everyday this year? Yes, EVERY.SINGLE.DAY
Well, I am. So far I have succeeded but then again it is only day 11. HA! Before I go, here is a sneak of what I've "snapped" so far this year:

Until next time loves...muah!
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